Oh! my Appa
oh! Appa! Where are you now? You are always in our hearts!
Those kids are very happy - believing that you'll come back again
Is that true? Not really! You have never left our hearts ever!
When you(body) passed away we all cried - those weren't tears of sorrow
those weren't tears of sorrow - and those were tears of joy
thinking about those joyous moments, when you had showered your love on us
and those moments when we had reciprocated your love with respect and love
and those moments when we stood with you during all the hardships
and those moments when you would make jokes to make us laugh
and those moments when you would bring snacks and dishes in your bag
and those moments when you would worship during mandala masam
and those moments when we felt proud of having you in our lives
and those moments when tou would get me a slipper for my birth-day
and those moments of separation when you go on pilgrimage
and those moments when I would bring your lunch to work
and those moments when you used to console us in our pains
and those moments when you used to bring your salary on the i1st of month
and those moments when I got into your mosquito net at night
and those moments when you used to explain us Abirami Andadi
and those moments when you used to feel the pain in our pains
and those moments when you felt the pleasure in our victories
and those moments when you would talk to me like my best friend
and those moments when you would sing songs in the morning
and those moments when you cooked tomato rice when amma is away
and those moments when you would name your recipes uniquely
and those moments when you would make a bird out of aluminum foil
and those moments when you would draw nice stuff on paper
and those moments when you has made a lot of paper cuttings
and those moments when you wrote poems in Thamizh
and those moments when you had tea / coffee
and those moments when you would cut one banana into 5 pieces ans give it to all of us
and those moments when you had predicted our day/time of births in advance
and those moments when you would discuss about your trip to Shabari mala
and those moments when you would shed tears of love for your beloved Lord (Ayyappa)
and those moments when you would fast and follow celibacy during mandala vrutham
and those moments when you used to conduct Puja (Katti nerai)
and those moments when you re-built our home
and those moments when you took voluntary retirement for akka's wedding
and those moments when you used to confront me to make me better
and those moments when you and amma looked like Parvathy Parameshwara after Rudrekadashi bath
and those moments when we used to celebrate your birth day ( Kathikai Uthrattadi)
and those moments when I used to look at you like a kid when you walked slowly
and those moments when I went with you for laser eye surgeries
and those moments when we used to go together for avani avittam
and those moments when you would explain the words from Vishnu 1000 (Karanam Kaaranam Kartha)
and those moments when you explained about your life in Kakka Vattaram!
and those moments when you explained us about how you came first in Tanjore district in Raja's High School
and those moments how you said Thiru Thiru Rakshasan in school(for Drutha Rastran)
and all those sweet moments when we shared the pains and pleasures of life
Appa we did all the things after you left us as per the protocol
Appa we know that you an elevated soul and does not need any dhaan / rtiuals
Appa still we did everything as per the protocol to show our love and respect for you
Appa and we know that you will shower all the pleasures of this world from heaven
Appa our hearts are filled with love for you always! Earlier you were in your physical form with us!
Appa now you are in your eternal form - Sukshma Swaroopam in the eternal abode of your sweet Lord!
Appa we need only your blessings and not the worldly pleasures!!
I just have to take another birth to enlist all the great qualities in you!
Only your materialistic body has left us! For the eternal Soul is immortal!
You are there with us always!
You have become divine and become one with the Universe! One with the Supreme! That's what Upanishads say!
Appa, someday when you read this, please feel happy and proud of your family! We follow your advices and ideas and will always add fame to your name! Please don't be concerned that, you have left us alone! You have left all those good thoughts with us! Your advises and ideals in life are your representatives! We feel proud to have you with us for ever. Please feel bliss about our respect for us!
Blessed are we to have you in our lives
It is only your body, which has left us
You have become one with nature and one with the Supreme
You live in our hearts for ever in the form of all those pleasant feelings
You are there wit us for ever
