Moments of Joy...

Oh! Amba! After surrendering everything I posses to your Lotus feet, I don't have anything to call as mine! All I have is the devotion to your Lotus feet! Please accept this sinner as your slave and hear my prayers!

Oh! Amba! Many people have dreams of their last moments! So Do I! AFter having performed the rites for my ancestors and father, when I had fed the Pithrus, Pita Maha & Prabitha Maha, and had offered them  food in the fire, and prostrated to their foot, and when I am in an ecstatic state, and when I shed tears of joy , thinking of the vathsalyam of my father and mother , and the kindness you showed to me though them please take me to your punya lokam!

Oh! Amba! When I had worshipped the Lotus feet of my SadGuru and when I am in a state of ecstasy thinking of the graces you bestowed on  me though my SadGuru, who showed the true meaning of the scriptures and preached me the true swaroopam of this Athma, and who takes me to the ecstatic state of Brahmanandam, and when I am in that state of ecstasy thinking of yours and Guru Krupa take me to your punya lokam!

Oh! Amba! When I had done your Navarathry Poojanam and when I have reached that great state of ecstasy, thinking of your blessings on this SInners and when I shed tears of joy, take me to your punya lokam!

Oh! Amba! You are that Maya! You are that Ishwari, who controls that Maya! You are also the one, who blesses devotees with their Athma Gnana! When I had realized your greatness, about how you have elevated this sinner from the level of a normal human being to the status of a worshipper of your Lotus feet and when I shed tears of Joy out of ecstasy, Oh! Amba! take away this mortal body!

Oh! Amba!  When I had done your divine worship and when I am with my family, friends and relatives, talking about your greatness about how you blessed Kalidasa, Dravida Sishu, Rathi Devi, Kumbha Muni take this mortal shareeram away and take me to that lokam, where there is no birth or death any more!

Oh! Amba! When I am in my garden, filled with flowers, envisioning your beautiful face in lotus, your lustrous , fluorescent colour in the nasturtium, the fragrance of your devotion in the Roses, your beautiful green colour in the grass and when I am in a state of ecstasy thinking of you take this mortal body!

Oh! Amba! When I am listening to melodious music, songs from the devotees, Azwars, Siddha Purushas,Sufi,Nayanmars, your divine names blessed to us by Kumbha Muni and when I envision you there and when I get immersed in the nectar of your devotion and when I had forgotten this worldly things and when I am in a total state of ecstasy take this mortal body!

Oh! Amba! Please forgive me if I had said anything wrong! Having surrendered everything to you - this shareeram, this mind , indriyas, this intellect and everything else I possess in this world, why should I pray to you about when to take this mortal coil? Oh! Amba Please forgive this ignorant one! Instead I should pray for being in a state of nithya sharanagathy! Oh! AMba ! Bless me with the ability to be immersed in your thoughts, although I get involved with the way of life of a common loukeeka! Oh! Amba! Bless me with that Gnana & Vaigraya! Even though I live the life of a loukeeka, - make my mind like that leaf of Lotus, which never sticks to water, even thought it's born in water! Not just during the final moments, oh! AMba! Bless me with that state of ecstasy - immersion in your Bhakthy all the times! Oh! Amba! You are the Ishwari! You when when to do what and whom to bless with what! But still like a baby, crying for mother's attention, I am trying to ask you to bless me! Oh! Amba ! Accept this sinner as your slave and bless me with your Bhakthy!

My Parrot.......

Oh! My parrot where are you? I searched the entire forest and found a parrot!

So beautiful was that parrot. Green were it's feathers and reddish were it's lips! The parrot spoke so beautifully and sang songs for me.

I got red chillies, grapes and oranges and fed that parrot. The bird ate all those fruits and was happy!

I left the parrot in my garden and let it fly free! I didn't want to put that bird in a cage. Whenever I called the bird would come and sit on my hands ans sing a song for me!

The bird grew big and looked beautiful! One fine morning, to my surprise and astonishment, the parrot shed all it's feathers! The parrot transformed into a bare-necked vulture!

I was shocked by the sight of that vulture! I started calling my parrot! That vulture came and sat on my hands! I asked, where was my parrot! It said, I am a vulture now and not a parrot! I said, as long as you are my parrot I am fine!

That vulture sat on my shoulders! I tried to feed it grapes and chillies! But that vulture said, with it's new form it wanted only flesh! That too only human flesh! I said, how can I help? The vulture said, that it needs to eat my flesh! Shocked by it's devilish desires, I said, that the vulture can do as it wishes!

The vulture tried to eat a little flesh of mine from the hands! Then it said, my flesh was not tasty as it had too much salt!! It further added, that the vulture preferred to flesh of a corpse! A decaying corpse! I was shocked again! Then the vulture flew away from my garden and went into the jungle, where corpses were taken to be thrown on a tower! The vulture said, it preferred a corpse as a corpse would not fight back when it was de-fleshed! 

Then the vulture fed on dead meat and lived happily form then on! I was wondering where was my parrot! I just realized that, I was cheated - by that vulture with devilish desires , in the dis-guise of a parrot.!

The vulture dis-appeared from my sight, never to be seen again ! Never to be seen again! Gone are those days of pain! Gone are those days of the pain of solitude! Gone are those days of agony! I am enjoying my blissful way of life!! And that vulture it's own devilish way of life! Finally I realised that, people finally reach where they belong to! 

Oh! My Nephiew

Oh! My Krishna! I just don't have words to say how nice you are!

That morning, when my sister had pains, we were leaving to the hospital! Anxious about what was going to happen, I looked at the flag post of Krishna temple! That Garuda said, "Do not worry"!! True to Garuda's words you were born like that little Krishna!!

You were born like Krishna! Waiting outside with anxiety of my sister's operation, we all forgot all that pain, when we say you!

Oh! My Lala! I just don't have words to express how joyful I felt, when my mother gave you in my hands, when you were only 2 minutes old!

Oh! My Baby! Glorious were those moments, which I spent with you! When you came here as a small kid ! Your innocent looks reminded me of God's graces. I said to myself, "Blessed am I to have this kid with me!".

Oh! MY Krishna! You showed me, what divinity is! It is nothing but true love without any expectations! Enlightened was I to have you with me!

Oh! My Krishna! I used to bathe you and feed you and take care of you! I was a fool to think that, I am taking care of a child! But then I realised that, I was taking care of that Krishna, who is stationed in the temple! Blessed am I, to do those services!

Oh! My Krishna! When you a child (5+ years) I bathed you. You stood like a statue! It was like bathing that real Krishna in Ayarpadi! You showed me how the feeling of vathsalyam feels! 

Oh! My Krishna! I prepared food for you - all with less heat, chillies etc. I was foolish to think that, "I" did that for you! It was for the service of that baby Krishna, who blessed me!!

Oh! My Krishna! You were very playful -  but still understood my pains and was very obedient! You taught me that thing in life, called compassion, which even great Rishis don't get even after several births. Blessed am I to have you.

Oh! My Krishna! One day you puked on me! I felt irritated! How big of a fool was I ? Blessed are the ones, who would get associated with a child! And blessed are the ones, who would see none other than Krishna in any children!!

Oh! my Krishna! It was a Saturday morning and you were sleeping! I was trying to wake you up! Your eyes were partially opened! It just gave me a glimpse of Viswamitra singing the wake up song for Rama!! You gave me that experience, which even great Saints don't get so easily!! Fortunate am I to have you.

Oh! My Krishna! When I was going on a vacation to India , you wept relentlessly! I felt very strange on seeing that! You sowed the seed of affection then! After you left me and went to India for good, I felt that way every single moment! It took me so long to realize that simple truth of true affection! How big of a fool am I to consider myself great, without having the knowledge to understand the nature of true love and affection , with no expectations! Lucky am I to have you!

Oh! My Kanna! I always considered small kids are playful and can be easily ignored! How ignorant was I! Small kids and their true affection takes one to divinity very easily! How foolish was I to be ignorant of that Universal fact! That Krishna in G.V.oor sent you here to show me that truth!

After enjoying and tasting the sweetness of service to Lord, through my experience with you, it created a permanent place in my mind , which is the playground of that playful Krishna! He dances! He walks! He sings! He sleeps! He eats! He performs the dance on Kalinga! Oh! My lord, this mortal body and the illusive mind are all impermanent! But they serve a cause of hosting you in them, and takes me to an experience, which is permanent! Blessed are the ones, who envision none other than the Lord in their minds!
Blessed are the ones, who use their bodies for service to the Lord!
Blessed are the ones, who listen to the music of the Lord!
Bless are the ones, who smell the flower from the Lotus feet of the Lord!
Bless are the ones, who see the Lord, through inner vision!
Blessed are the ones, who sing the names of the Lord!
Bless are the ones, who service the Lord, who would take one to an endless state of bliss!

Oh! Krishna! You entered my heart, in the form of Love! You stayed there, teaching me how to show compassion to others! You stayed there for ever, transcending this mind, body etc.. to a state, where there's nothing but bliss! Everlasting bliss! You just didn't leave my heart, after you did that! You stayed there for ever to show me that love and compassion, which transcends me into blissful state! Oh! my Krishna! I have no words! I have no words! I am going to faint and become unconscious out of bliss!

oh! My Father..

Oh! my Appa


oh! Appa! Where are you now? You are always in our hearts!
Those kids are very happy - believing that you'll come back again
Is that true? Not really! You have never left our hearts ever!

When you(body) passed away we all cried - those weren't tears of sorrow
those weren't tears of sorrow  - and those were tears of joy
thinking about those joyous moments, when you had showered your love on us
and those moments when we had reciprocated your love with respect and love
and those moments when we stood with you during all the hardships
and those moments when you would make jokes to make us laugh
and those moments when you would bring snacks and dishes in your bag
and those moments when you would worship during mandala masam
and those moments when we felt proud of having you in our lives
and those moments when tou would get me a slipper for my birth-day
and those moments of separation when you go on pilgrimage
and those moments when I would bring your lunch to work
and those moments when you used to console us in our pains
and those moments when you used to bring your salary on the i1st of month
and those moments when I got into your mosquito net at night
and those moments when you used to explain us Abirami Andadi
and those moments when you used to feel the pain in our pains
and those moments when you felt the pleasure in our victories
and those moments when you would talk to me like my best friend
and those moments when you would sing songs in the morning
and those moments when you cooked tomato rice when amma is away
and those moments when you would name your recipes uniquely
and those moments when you would make a bird out of aluminum foil
and those moments when you would draw nice stuff on paper
and those moments when you has made a lot of paper cuttings
and those moments when you wrote poems in Thamizh
and those moments when you had tea / coffee
and those moments when you would cut one banana into 5 pieces ans give it to all of us
and those moments when you had predicted our day/time of births in advance
and those moments when you would discuss about your trip to Shabari mala
and those moments when you would shed tears of love for your beloved Lord (Ayyappa)
and those moments when you would fast and follow celibacy during mandala vrutham
and those moments when you used to conduct Puja (Katti nerai)
and those moments when you re-built our home
and those moments when you took voluntary retirement for akka's wedding
and those moments when you used to confront me to make me better
and those moments when you and amma looked like Parvathy Parameshwara after Rudrekadashi bath
and those moments when we used to celebrate your birth day ( Kathikai Uthrattadi)
and those moments when I used to look at you like a kid when you walked slowly
and those moments when I went with you for laser eye surgeries
and those moments when we used to go together for avani avittam
and those moments when you would explain the words from Vishnu 1000 (Karanam Kaaranam Kartha)
and those moments when you explained about your life in Kakka Vattaram!
and those moments when you  explained us about how you came first in Tanjore district in Raja's High School
and those moments how you said Thiru Thiru Rakshasan  in school(for Drutha Rastran)
and all those sweet moments when we shared the pains and pleasures of life

Appa we did all the things after you left us as per the protocol
Appa we know that you an elevated soul and does not need any dhaan / rtiuals
Appa still we did everything as per the protocol to show our love and respect for you
Appa and we know that you will shower all the pleasures of this world from heaven
Appa our hearts are filled with love for you always! Earlier you were in your physical form with us!
Appa now you are in your eternal form - Sukshma Swaroopam in the eternal abode of your sweet Lord!
Appa we need only your blessings and not the worldly pleasures!!


I just have to take another birth to enlist all the great qualities in you!
Only your materialistic body has left us! For the eternal Soul is immortal!
You are there with us always!
You have become divine and become one with the Universe! One with the Supreme! That's what Upanishads say!

Appa, someday when you read this, please feel happy and proud of your family! We follow your advices and ideas and will always add fame to your name! Please don't be concerned that, you have left us alone! You have left all those good thoughts with us! Your advises and ideals in life are your representatives! We feel proud to have you with us for ever. Please feel bliss about our respect for us!

Blessed are we to have you in our lives
It is only your body, which has left us
You have become one with nature and one with the Supreme
You live in our hearts for ever in the form of all those pleasant feelings
You are there wit us for ever